As the sun finally sets on 2013, I can’t help but reflect on the past year and the new one that will begin tomorrow.
Around this time, most photographers blogs tend to be filled with their end of year reviews… hundreds of beautiful images showing what an incredible year they’ve had. I apologise. I should really be doing the same. But it just doesn’t feel right. Yes, I’ve had an incredible professional year, Photographed some beautiful weddings, travelled to some amazing places, launched an exciting new wedding blog and it appears…I’ve inspired some individuals along the way.
I won’t bore you with my ramblings this evening. But what I will say is that over the last 12 months (like most of you) its been both good and bad. I tend to write about the good stuff and try to forget the bad but its not always doable which is why I’ve kept quiet for most of the year.
Personally, its been incredibly hard.
I’ve said goodbye to friends that should still be here. It was always going to be tough. I just didn’t think it would still hurt so much.
Watching close family go through the pain and grief of losing their babies and feeling totally helpless. I know just being there for them may have helped…but I wanted to do so much more.
Seeing both my kids collapse with seizures, rushed into hospital and waiting nervously to hear what the doctors will say. I can’t put into words the emotions that ran through my head that day. Thank goodness they are both well now.
My list goes on.
I’m sure each and every one of you have experienced your own difficulties. Many of which none of us will ever read about. I’m certainly not looking for sympathy here. Its life, my life. I’m not sure why I feel the need to write about all this. However, I’ve deleted it twice already and keep coming back to it, so its got to be worth putting out there, right?
Throwing myself into my work has helped me deal with a lot of these horrid things. I do try to get a positive out of a negative. And it works, to an extent.
So, as I draw a line under 2013, and conclude its been both cruel and kind. I look to 2014 with a brave face and a ridiculous amount of confidence.
There are so many exciting things to look forward to:
- professional practice
- Cwtch the Bride
- PLUS a new project!!!
- The imminent birth of my niece (due in feb)
- Quality time with my family
- More walks along Newgale beach
- Turning 36yrs old eek!
- My annual NYC adventure (maybe i can persuade my husband to join me this year?)
- Lots and LOTS of laughter.
So here is to the safe arrival of 2014. I wish you all a great evening.